Process beginning....exfoliating the flesh

Whew (wiping sweat off of forehead)! That 'layer' of learning His way to submit was a toughie. Hence the reason for such a delay in blogging, it took that long for me to listen and respond to Him. Ugh! But anyway, it's all good now, and i feel so much closer to Him as a result. Howeverrrrrr, i have a feeling this next layer is NOT going to be tough at all, more like IMPOSSIBLE!!! Of course, that's without Him. Good thing He has me in the palm of His hand because I am gonna need that security! What is the next layer, Robin, you ask??? Well.......

Ewww, this one really does stink so you might wanna hold your nose. Tonight, as i was looking for the dust pan to sweep up the pile i just collected, i can't find it. Immediately i get irritated so i just left the pile in the middle of the floor, turned off the light, and left the kitchen as i always do when my job is complete. Well, let me fill you in on WHY (as if there is ever a 'good' reason to be irritated at such petty things) i was so irritated. About a year ago, i bought a broom that was ONLY to be used in the house and assigned the older broom for the outside duties. Many times if we rinse the floor of the garage, it would get swept out with the broom leaving the broom all deformed and what not making it difficult when i sweep, in the house, due to the inability to get in the corners and stuff where i need the 'angle' part of the broom. OK, hang with me, you'll see the relevance in a sec. So, sometime between then and now, we have managed to get down to one broom again. Soooo, yesterday, my 'inside' broom is now an 'outside' broom. Sigh....

Well, i went grocery shopping and bought me a brand new amazing microfiber broom that is supposed to be the 'next best thing'! And of course, it would NEVER get taken outside because, i mean, after all, everyone knows it's cloth and it doesn't make sense to use it outside. (see the motive for getting the broom??? Ugh, already off to a bad start) Anyway, Ha! Whatever, it wasn't quite what i had hoped for, but no biggie. So by this time, i am irritable for several reasons.....that i had to buy a new broom and it sucked, i can't find the dust pan (come to find out, the boys used it to shovel snow off of the trampoline today so it is more than likely buried in the snow somewhere), and the fact that i am actually irritated at such petty things when, right now, there are people all over the country, state, town, and possibly my neighborhood, who do NOT know Jesus as their Savior and will spend an ETERNITY in hell if they got in a wreck and died in this mess (it's snowy and stuff here, probably a little icy too), or any other tragedy occurred. That just sickens my soul and, ugh, i think i just threw up in my mouth! So yeah, the relevance of that whole story i told you about and my attitude during all of it??? Omg, what if the people in my home were in that category? Like, the people that saw that ugliness come out over something so silly, what if they did NOT know Jesus and i had just introduced them to the only thing they knew about being a 'follower' of Him! Seriously, i am so grateful it was just Michael because i totally would have NOT shown them the characteristics of the Creator of the universe that is holding His arms wide open waiting for them to reach out to Him.

This is the part that hurts my heart...is that us every day as we 'go about' our business? Like, do we just expect everyone that comes in our path to know about Jesus and what a great thing it is to have been saved by Him? So, somehow, it doesn't matter what sort of attitude we have, or how we look (or not look) at people, etc.? I can't help but just keep telling myself, "ugh, thank God it was just Michael and he already knows Jesus cuz if not, that person would have been out of luck if i was the one whom He chose to show them Jesus in the flesh."

So yeah, in a nutshell, that is the next layer i am praying for to be exfoliated from this fleshly soul of mine. Join me in prayer? Great. Join me in the challenge??? Even greater!

Love and hugs,

Robin :)